Now What?

i only have one thing in mind.
and facing it everyday isn't helping.
it makes me cry and it makes my head go round in circles.

should i or should i not?
that is the question.

if yes, i could work hard.
i could save up all the money and use it for that sole purpose.

if no, then i guess...
i guess i would suffer doing what i don't enjoy doing.

i guess it was a mistake.
a grave mistake clearly made by me.

i should have.
should have accepted my mom's invitation.

so now, what should i do?
if you're clever enough, you should know what i am talking about.