Mikey G, please come back home soon.

Please do.

I miss you so bad right now.

Best to be Read at Home - Between Michael George and Me

Hey babe good morning.

I saw that today's your last day at work. So does that mean you're gonna start school soon too when you get home to States?

I don't know how to start this, but I need to get over it. So yeah, here it goes -

I like you, I really really do, trust me on that. But I don't want to get into the way of you and Wyatt. When you said that you should've kept me as a friend, it did hurt me. I have been through enough Michael, emotionally. My baby(Pravina) likes you and so does my sister. Before I met you, I can't feel anything - empty. That's how I managed to be with those douchebags before you for that long. Then you came, and I was telling myself to not let anything happen.

But you know very well, it was a little too late. You asked my sister for permission to bring me out that night! On the same night you promised her you take care of me. Again, I thought that was bullshit, honestly. Then I met you, at your place. And I know the inevitable happened. If you're local, you know what I would say to you right now? It'd be "Cheebye ah, aku da suka kan kau!" which if it were to be translated, "Fuck, I've fallen for you." I missed a whole day of murdering sheeps to go out on a date with you! That pretty much sums up everything I was saying.

All I'm trying to say is, the days spent with you was priceless. I was happy, contented. You made me laugh, you tickled me hard, you squeezed me and squash me till I feel as though my back's breaking and you throw me around. You made me feel again, Mikey. And I thank you for that.

So now, I've felt all the good things, I don't want to feel the bad ones. I don't wanna go through another heartache. I don't know why I'm so heavy, so insecure right now. And the only possible reason is because I don't want to lose you. Now, that sounds pretty weird but that's the reason.

I just want you to be happy. No, that's a lie. I wanna be happy too. I want you to be happy with your Son. I don't know what's happening right now with you and Cassie in regards to Wyatt. But I really don't want to be the reason why you don't get to see your Son anymore. I care for you, Mikey. I care about how you feel.

I don't know where this is going between us, but please let me know. The ball is in your side of the court right now. I'll be here for you, baby. No matter what. Just don't leave me hanging. I know you like me, you never fail to remind me every single day while you were in Singapore. But when you told me that you've fallen for me, that took this whole thing to a different level. Now I know you're serious, which made me happy. But right now, you need to be happy.

You'll be going back to the States on 14th. And I don't know where you'll be after that. But if this were to continue, between me and you, I'll make sure this long distance thing works out until I save enough money to visit you and meet your mom, that is how much I like you (plus the things I remember about you - like you don't ever take medicines when you're sick, and how you don't really like drinking liquor from the bottle, but you can take shots, and how you're a smoker and not a what's-that-thing-that-adam-took again?). But if it doesn't work out, let's end it in a very clean-no-fighting kinda way. But if you want me to wait until you've sort everything out, talk to your mom, do whatever you gotta do, just let me know. And I'll wait, but please not too long. It's hard enough not seeing you, but not hearing from you? . I am very reasonable and my mindset is very much different from most girls (that's why I don't get along well with them), so it's okay if you gotta be brutally honest with me in regards to what your heart really desire. Like how you wanna be with your family but you have unfortunately fallen for me. I believe things will work out they way you want them to, if you make the right decisions.

Just one thing, don't leave me hanging. Because I really can't tolerate with that.

Go and enjoy with your boys and your friends before you fly back to the States.

I'll be waiting to hear from you.


hugsandkisses
Your Princess ♥

P.S: At least now you know something about me now.

Where's the Man whom I've loved?

What is Love?

I feel so empty now,

Just wanna run away from everyone.

But they are not at fault - NO!

But what should I do now?

There's no way where we could be like before.

I hope that there's a way.

But I don't even know where he is right now!

Tomorrow's school and my heart's not right.

I'm not in my right mind.

Everything that I've done,

Everything that I'm doing

All comes down to him.

But where is he now, I wonder?

And why is he doing this to me?

Is it ever so hard for him to tell me what's happening?

But where is he?

Does he know that I miss him?

So badly?

I don't wanna cry myself to sleep tonight.

For once in Two weeks, I want to be able to sleep peacefully.

I want to be able to go to sleep knowing that he's right there, for me.

That he still do Love Me, and Want Me.

I want that secure feeling that he used to give me.

The feeling of being Loved and Protected.

I want my Monster back!

*sobs sobs*

Every time when I'm with him, I realized that every single time when she calls, he wouldn't talk to her nicely. And for this week alone, I met him for 5 days. :/

What if he is only with her cos he couldn't say those hurtful words?

What if he is only with me cos she don't have the time for him?

But whatever it is, I want him to be mine, and only mine.

i have finally bought my fishing stuff. it cost me nearly 40 bucks sia. but its okay. i bought something for Monster as well. the thing like macam cool like that, its a soft jig uhh. but damn cool uh, better than the one we bought at Beach Rd.

Talking about Beach Rd, my crave for Tulang Merah wasn't satisfied last night. Grrrr.. Cos i had Wanton Noodle for buka last night. :/

So tonight Monster coming over to take his fishing stuff that i've bought for him - for next week's fishing trip. :D Maybe he can belanja me makan eh? Hopefully ah. Today, i dunno what to eat for buka. Cos i'm damn broke boy.

In any case, fishing/prawning/crabbing is still a hobby of mine. Though I just started, but i've already got the hang of it, cos i have been using Monster's rod and he have been teaching me quite a number of useful stuff actually. :)

I love him, Monster. I really do.