Where's the Man whom I've loved?

What is Love?

I feel so empty now,

Just wanna run away from everyone.

But they are not at fault - NO!

But what should I do now?

There's no way where we could be like before.

I hope that there's a way.

But I don't even know where he is right now!

Tomorrow's school and my heart's not right.

I'm not in my right mind.

Everything that I've done,

Everything that I'm doing

All comes down to him.

But where is he now, I wonder?

And why is he doing this to me?

Is it ever so hard for him to tell me what's happening?

But where is he?

Does he know that I miss him?

So badly?

I don't wanna cry myself to sleep tonight.

For once in Two weeks, I want to be able to sleep peacefully.

I want to be able to go to sleep knowing that he's right there, for me.

That he still do Love Me, and Want Me.

I want that secure feeling that he used to give me.

The feeling of being Loved and Protected.

I want my Monster back!

*sobs sobs*

Every time when I'm with him, I realized that every single time when she calls, he wouldn't talk to her nicely. And for this week alone, I met him for 5 days. :/

What if he is only with her cos he couldn't say those hurtful words?

What if he is only with me cos she don't have the time for him?

But whatever it is, I want him to be mine, and only mine.

i have finally bought my fishing stuff. it cost me nearly 40 bucks sia. but its okay. i bought something for Monster as well. the thing like macam cool like that, its a soft jig uhh. but damn cool uh, better than the one we bought at Beach Rd.

Talking about Beach Rd, my crave for Tulang Merah wasn't satisfied last night. Grrrr.. Cos i had Wanton Noodle for buka last night. :/

So tonight Monster coming over to take his fishing stuff that i've bought for him - for next week's fishing trip. :D Maybe he can belanja me makan eh? Hopefully ah. Today, i dunno what to eat for buka. Cos i'm damn broke boy.

In any case, fishing/prawning/crabbing is still a hobby of mine. Though I just started, but i've already got the hang of it, cos i have been using Monster's rod and he have been teaching me quite a number of useful stuff actually. :)

I love him, Monster. I really do.

why monster? why? why cant you make up your mind? why do you keep pulling me in when i'm ready to stand on my own two? why do you ALWAYS have to make me fall for you over and over again? oh, why do i love you so much??