semakin RENDAH!

i was down at the lobby,
when a colleague came up to me and started talking.
we came to a point where the malay language is being discussed and used;
and the elder colleague said something like this,
"padi semakin tunduk, semakin...?"
and i answered "rendah!"

CONFIDENT! and i got it wrong.
hahs, paiseh.
and then started the conversation of languages.
malu sia.

when that particular colleague of mine started talking,
i felt so ashamed that i'm a malay, but i can't even speak proper malay!
damn shit! that really caught me red faced, mann.

hais, seriously la. not good. not good.
but to me malay language is hard lor!
haha. EXCUSES!

FAHLYNN ADER ADER AJER TAU!

can i cry and maki out loud now?!

I WANT ABANG, AND NOT YOU!

i dont have such time to update much anymore. period.

you

i miss you, i love you, i want you and i need you.

i hope this will continue on till it is supposed to end.
i want you with me, i want you to be by my side when i need you.

i want to hear your heart pumping,
and i want to hear your breath of life.
i want to feel your chest going in and out, breathing ever so deeply.
i want to lie beside you and talk about anything from my education to your life.

its those little things that made me want to spend more time with you.
with each little passing moments that we have shared together,
its not those big outings that we had that made me crave for your more.
its those little moments that we share together.

those moments that other people never appreciate.

and i know when they are, cos i dont get to spend my whole life with you.
and so its those little conversations that we have with each other despite where we are,
those shy smiles that we gave to each other, in discreet.

its those small tokens that we passed to each other,
while others may think its just normal stuff.
but with each small ordinary tokens i passed to you,
i think about you.

and i do care. please let me. even if it will hurt me.