bye.

no shit. lappie crashed! haha. seriously. don't ever wanna go back home again. serious. period. nobody is ever gonna stop me. no fuck. not feeling it right now. anyone who read this blog of mine, anything just gimme a text at my cell. cos the next time i'm gonna be online to post anymore shits that have been happening in my life will be... GOD KNOWS WHEN. okay?

thank you vey much.

okay, is it me. or is it me? am i getting sick byday or is it just imagining? my head's in a spin and everything's gone blur. my tummy is in constant brawl to the toilet. and my shoulder is not helping at all. my leg is swollen now like one huge ostrich egg. i can't even breathe properly. seriosly, am i going to die soon or what?!

my constant heavy breathing is not helping at all. seriously. its driving me nuts. this thing have been going on and off ever since last year. and it sucks really big time. i really hate to be sick. maybe i really need to go to the doc soon. seriously la... this thing is making my head spin like crazy. and makes my vision blur everytime i stand up. or maybe its low blood pressure?? haha.

aku nie... da mcm org tua. nkalah org tua yang healthy. hehe. da la da la. nak gi rest nie. kalau tak, mampos jugak aku!

i just want this to end,
please.

anyone who wants to go out with me and set me straight? looking forward to thursday. i don't know what to do, seriously. i envy those who are happy. can anyone make me happy like i was before? can i drink and forget everything that has ever happen to me in the past few months? can i just crawl into a dark hole and never come out?

if i die, who will cry for me?

just please.

i just want someone who can love me with all his heart and make me happy.

are you that person?

mummy made us this honeyed cornflakes which we all like.
thank you.

p/s: the bruise aint getting any better.

PEDIH LA!

OUCH!

that is all i could say for now.

i don't know whasts up ehh. maybe its just that people don't like to see me happy. and seriously, i'm having a fucking huge problem here. i don't like to share my things with people - and that includes my own siblings. but what the hell. this must be one of my bad mood. *moodswings*

okay okay. and so asma found me at last! we should hang out together babe - i mean since now i don't mind going to east side. like serious, west da takder pape seyys. lucky her she've found the right guy. but for me... hehe. once you get close to me, you'll find out girl. ;) da dgr cite, kepala boleh pecah, SERIOUS. i tak bedek seyys.

soccer tomorrow. damn excited. plus, lala's birthday. wee. but still, *sighs*. i feel like a loner now. i just want to go school everyday so that i'll be around people who i can talk to freely. do school projects like nobody's business and stop thinking of other things. i need to get a job, PRONTO! but but stupid double bay bar didn't even call me up. i put my hipes up high for them. waste my bloody time. schould work somewhere in the west or maybe town area. just to keep my mind off things.

what do you think guy? any suggestions on where should i work? no SB or CBTL okies. been there, done that. i wanna work night. or maybe something that can slot into my wacky time-table now. like serious.

anyway, i am so enjoying school right now that i don't ever want school to end. i mean, yes, we're doing nothing. but seriously. it helps me keep my mind off things. like huge time. and so i better go now. in search of my love.

any candidates?

-i smell of him-

A Sadistic Post

seriously, at this point of time i'm wishing that i have lots more to do in terms of project work. cos it really takes my mind off things that shouldn't be in my head in the first place. seriously. but hey, at least i'm not stressed because of school. that's good, right? only god knows what i''m feeling actually. lose hope on everything. just feel like giving up. there isn't any much faith in me to keep me living. i hate the world. i hate everyone. i hate you.

i miss you my baby girls.

These girls i miss.

it couldn't get any better than this.

ohkays, it's been two days now that i have been smilimg and blushing at the name of two guys. hees. life have been perfectly awesome. i'm back to my old self. getting my face all red everytime when we start talking about Pasha from Ungu band. no, like serious. according to Ninie, who slept over at my place yesterday, my face turned all red everytime we were talking about him. haha. and i start to smile widely like he's just right there infront of me. ouh, how awesome would that be.

i am so motivated to go to Indonesia now, just to find him or some equally hot Indonesian teenage/adult guy. i mean they are so frigging good looking. god knows what i'll do with them. hehe. and and besides, Ariel is hot too. plus also that singer form the band Titans. ouh why must they be all so handsome and good looking? *sighs*

oh oh. and as for the other guy.. hehe. makes me motivated AGAIN to just go to school. i am happy this way. thank god for him. but he'll only be with us for only a few weeks.. *sobs* but till then imma attend school like it'll be the last thing for me to do in my life. especially on SW days. and when we get to play soccer even though it'll only be after class have been dismissed. but still.. its better than nothing. :)

and now i hafta get back to viewing Pasha's candid photos. Laterz!