a break.

dammit.
i don't know whats up with me, seriously.
one moment i was happy, the next i am moody.
can somebody please tell me?

i feel so sorry for him.
cos i have been avoiding him all this while.
and i know you did nothing wrong.
but its not me to ignore your texts.

definately not me.

and so right now i am blogging feeling guilty.
of the love we used to share,
that is now non-existance
in my heart.

how could i fall out of love with you?
the answer is simple:
i feel obliged,
to be in a relationship with you.

you may think its because of a third party,
but think again, my dear one.
i have been becoming more distance even before this week
i have not been meeting you often even before this week.

and all that smiles and hug
were all pretence of the confusion beneath it.
we may not be fated, or we may be fated.
but thats entirely up to the One above.

i am just here to play my part.
i'm doing this because of the reason underneath it.
a reason that none of us will know.
a reason none of us shall find out.

love do come in different forms.
but the one im looking for is just not you.
or maybe it is you.
i have yet to find out.

till then, lets take a step back and ask:

"is this natural and real or obliged and pretence?"