Hey babe good morning.
I saw that today's your last day at work. So does that mean you're gonna start school soon too when you get home to States?
I don't know how to start this, but I need to get over it. So yeah, here it goes -
I like you, I really really do, trust me on that. But I don't want to get into the way of you and Wyatt. When you said that you should've kept me as a friend, it did hurt me. I have been through enough Michael, emotionally. My baby(Pravina) likes you and so does my sister. Before I met you, I can't feel anything - empty. That's how I managed to be with those douchebags before you for that long. Then you came, and I was telling myself to not let anything happen.
But you know very well, it was a little too late. You asked my sister for permission to bring me out that night! On the same night you promised her you take care of me. Again, I thought that was bullshit, honestly. Then I met you, at your place. And I know the inevitable happened. If you're local, you know what I would say to you right now? It'd be "Cheebye ah, aku da suka kan kau!" which if it were to be translated, "Fuck, I've fallen for you." I missed a whole day of murdering sheeps to go out on a date with you! That pretty much sums up everything I was saying.
All I'm trying to say is, the days spent with you was priceless. I was happy, contented. You made me laugh, you tickled me hard, you squeezed me and squash me till I feel as though my back's breaking and you throw me around. You made me feel again, Mikey. And I thank you for that.
So now, I've felt all the good things, I don't want to feel the bad ones. I don't wanna go through another heartache. I don't know why I'm so heavy, so insecure right now. And the only possible reason is because I don't want to lose you. Now, that sounds pretty weird but that's the reason.
I just want you to be happy. No, that's a lie. I wanna be happy too. I want you to be happy with your Son. I don't know what's happening right now with you and Cassie in regards to Wyatt. But I really don't want to be the reason why you don't get to see your Son anymore. I care for you, Mikey. I care about how you feel.
I don't know where this is going between us, but please let me know. The ball is in your side of the court right now. I'll be here for you, baby. No matter what. Just don't leave me hanging. I know you like me, you never fail to remind me every single day while you were in Singapore. But when you told me that you've fallen for me, that took this whole thing to a different level. Now I know you're serious, which made me happy. But right now, you need to be happy.
You'll be going back to the States on 14th. And I don't know where you'll be after that. But if this were to continue, between me and you, I'll make sure this long distance thing works out until I save enough money to visit you and meet your mom, that is how much I like you (plus the things I remember about you - like you don't ever take medicines when you're sick, and how you don't really like drinking liquor from the bottle, but you can take shots, and how you're a smoker and not a what's-that-thing-that-adam-took again?). But if it doesn't work out, let's end it in a very clean-no-fighting kinda way. But if you want me to wait until you've sort everything out, talk to your mom, do whatever you gotta do, just let me know. And I'll wait, but please not too long. It's hard enough not seeing you, but not hearing from you? . I am very reasonable and my mindset is very much different from most girls (that's why I don't get along well with them), so it's okay if you gotta be brutally honest with me in regards to what your heart really desire. Like how you wanna be with your family but you have unfortunately fallen for me. I believe things will work out they way you want them to, if you make the right decisions.
Just one thing, don't leave me hanging. Because I really can't tolerate with that.
Go and enjoy with your boys and your friends before you fly back to the States.
I'll be waiting to hear from you.
hugsandkisses
Your Princess ♥
P.S: At least now you know something about me now.
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