A note to Ii

I asked Ii yesterday, "What would you answer if there's anyone were to ask when is our anniversary?" And there was this one looooong awkward moment between me and him. *crick crick crick* In which he finally answered "7th March." Hahaha.

To tell you the truth even I do not know when we officially got together. And that's because that no questions were being asked. Funny huh? Funnier part? Is that I've met him 3 years back - waaaaaay before I met Fifi OR Zaidi. Cool eh?

He sometimes reminds me of Abang, cos Abang don't take spicy food as well. Just like my dear boyy. Hehe. :) He is ze best ever. Though there are many times that he never fail to make me think and make me afraid of the "What IFs" questions.

Well this is what I'll say to you:

Dear Boyy,

I do get scared when you post those questions to me - right in the face. And I know it's because that you are the straight-forward type of person (just like Abang). But sometimes I get so scared that I would start thinking that you do actually mean what you are saying. You said, and you told me not to give in. But I'm so sick and tired of getting hurt and having unneccessary fights that sometimes I would just wanna let go and run away.

I may be only 19, but I am sick and tired of all the fucking around, playing a fool, getting hurt in this never-ending game. I am tired of all that, you know? And its true ahh, I'm like hoping to settle down soon. And the fact that I'm already 19 makes it worse la. Though initially I thought of not getting married, cos I'm really scared of the commitment. But if God willing, and I were to get married, I would most prolly be getting married at the age of 24, or somewhere around there - not too old, not too young, just nice. ;)

But I am falling head over heels for my current boyy here, right now. And I really love that feeling.

Dear Boyy, I Do Love You.

♥